Thought's on God

Turn it all around.

Destiny is found.

Continuum is the way.

Ask?

Question to your day.

Let yourself look back on your life.

Let yourself look forward to your life.

Don’t let others define your reality.

Know your story.

Inventory.

Don’t use force uncessarily.

Heart.

Forgiveness.

Home is worth finding from within.

Expansion.

Begin.

See your part in the whole.

Let yourself be led by your own breath.

Listen.

Rest.

Return to the place of feeling it the most.

Freedom.

Responsibility.

That there is a this after a that.

La la la la….

Effects on others.

Broaden your perspective to be inclusive.

The answer isn’t always a relationship.

People, places and things.

Obliterate.

Sovereignty.

Collective.

Hope.

Light.

Love.

One.

Christmas Light'24

It’s not a crime to not be loved by you.

Here, have a side of emotional abuse on your night roost.

You’ve got a bright light, lady.

Gotta see in the dark.

Solar star is polar car.

Living is Leading.

Awareness beyond the square-ness.

Try, to believe as I grieve.

There is always a reprieve.

Thank God for my sobriety.

It’s a personal choice.

Know your voice.

Your writing tells you what you’re needing to know.

The best fishing lodge, ever.

Want to judge me?

Catherine Zeta Victoria.

Do your light.

Focus on the aura.

Reality.

Trance.

Polarity.

World keep turning.

Sane world.

Different order.

Don’t get involved where you don’t get evolved.

Be open to learning.

Be truthful if you’re returning.

Drop it a a thought if it’s not what you want.

Re-frame.

Reclaim.

Loyalty to your name.

Haven’t seen you around.

No accountablity, for you old man.

Merry Christmas from a misogynist and a racist.

Btw, I’m reporting a man at work who hurt me.

Time’s up.

Thanks.

Paul. You’re not innocent.

Jesus Lives.

Paul. You’re not innocent.

Saves Lives.

Merry Christmas.

Blessings & Light.

I don’t go w out.

If I do, I go within.

Get to begin.

Time Queen

June 9, 2017. Involuntarily, on the night of Babcia’s death.

Unfortunates. Hurt me. They are born that way, they are not at fault.

Autonomy, is for everybody.

Codependency in my peer group, is unflattering.

Joy-thief.

Time Queen.

Gratitude.

Tiger, tiger.

I met Uma Thurman once.

Hostessing at the Pointe Restaurant at the Wickanninsh Inn.

Use your illusion.

Source.

One.

Free.

Energy.

Begin.

Many people, many pages.

Interception.

Deliver.

Unity.

Incorrect?

Spy vs. Spy.

Discrimination is not a good sensation.

Degradation.

Change what you are going for and you get what you want.

Perception.

Claim it all to receive your best story.

Never miss what is remiss.

I survived a horrific traffic crash w my husband aka Paul’s Oriental Express.

No harm. Lot’s of foul.

Pls clean up your side of the street.

Love my own Place, Lack of Grace & Need my Mace

To get some credence, give a revival.

Safety dance, men w out hats.

Lawyer w out values, lawyer w out borders.

Pop goes the world. Pop goes his mom.

Like I care about your about your inappropriate life.

Get a Chinese, if you pls. Her name is not Susan.

Don’t rape Victoria.

It’s your intellect, or lack of.

Paranoia.

Sorry you don’t respect facts as well as a clinical depression.

You’re kind of threat to society.

That is my truth, you’re kind of obtuse.

Paternalism, misrepresented.

No responsiblity, no accountablity, shaddy.

How dare you judge a princess?

You have -i-s-m.

Watch the denial in your face.

Your mother’s lace.

2x Men I Know Who Prefer to Hurt Me: Both a Like in Non-Dignity

Leave me alone, if you hate my throne.

No paranoia till Brooklyn.

Terrorism till ten.

I grew up going to 9111 Williams Road, Richmond, B.C.

So unintelligent to try to hurt a woman in private, unwarranted.

Breaking my rights in a hotel basement office & sophisticated bohemian apartment.

Try not to take out your mother’s ‘shove’ on a real life Wonder Woman.

White Dove.

That you like female immature adults who are dressed in old-world or Asian doll clothes is not pretty.

Try respecting femininity, go find a Journey.

Reverance, no right to judge a woman.

You’re attracted too? I’m not deserving of any judgment.

You’re getting pretty hectic.

Bricky are heavy.

Try, a program of discpline, and recovery, and providing.

Sorry, you’re illogical + weak men.

Blessings.

Stop Blaming a Butterfly (part 11): Narcissitic abuse; Cut it Loose

What is not the pollution?

What is the solution?

A feeling.

Feeling is a healing.

Try it on for size, be the prize.

Narcisstic abuse isn’t pretty, it isn’t as pretty as we make it look.

Takes a lot of strength, effort, dispcline, willpower and courage to overcome destruction & intentional mental harm to a woman.

Face the fear, these men that do that are not straight, and if you get raped, it means a low-form ‘female’ is easier for that man to manipulate.

It’s stemmed from an abusive childhood, a rejection of fatherhood, allegedly and laziness.

Mother’s raised “raised them wrong.”

Compassion to you.

Reverence, try that.

“Hyper on two.”

Stop Blaming Butterflies (part 10): Hotel "Called" Me: I met 2x Men on the Same Night going to Yoga

I like it better this way, seeing it in a new way.

So sorry, your healing is met in hurting another being.

By the way, I wasn’t asking.

Receiving.

Going to a Yoga, on October 12, 2022’s night.

Clandestiny, at the same four star property.

Follow your heart.

Watch your narc as to not let ‘sex will’ run apart.

In my opionion a men’s 12 step program of sobriety, would benefit an ex-heroin junkie, and an ‘alochol-free’, so-called sober man.

Took advantage of me, I gave you a lesson.

Blessed be.

Stop Blaming Butterflies (part 9) : The Lawyer & The Law (of Attraction)

The devil isn’t always a foe.

It’s the devil you don’t know, you may want to bestow.

I fought the “lawyer” and the law, won.

It isn’t a crime to idealize a timeless, time.

Yet, for a lawyer to play, 288 w a dangerous she-mind is a perilous climb.

Gleave, long descent. Google it. “She got my name.”

Stepdad. My ex-husband is the best.

No man came. Not true, insane.

Murray Sholty, represent me as my rape attorney.

See what time, brings.

Are you that full of yourself, f* face? …pls don’t oppress me, Tofino is fair to impress me.

I moved at 19, your next door girlie.

Stop Blaming Butterflies (part 8): Remedy, gently.

Don’t offshoot to a newt.

Perchance to dream.

Lawyer’s w out borders.

Cruisin’ for a brusin’.

Don’t be afraid of life’s unfolding movie.

The Corona awakening is always groovy.

Get high on energy, it is a remedy.

What awoke, is the Spirit.

Get better at being yourself.

A gaslighter wants you in fear, just say, “no thanks, I’m in the clear.”

Try addressing your denial and pls just stop talking.

Proceed w Truth & Light.

Never let a f* face own a space, retrace to your own place.

That’s not how you throw a party, Paul! That’s not a paperback writer.

I had to play a Beatles record backwards to see you, laaaater…

Jail, death, and instutitions.

World wide web, it’s all one place.

Weapon of choice, why not. Voice.

Go gently.

Stop Blaming Butterfiles (part 7): Workplace Sexual Violence's Unsilence's

Narcissitic abuse, is a huge missue. It’s about being given a fake dose of something, not anything. Forgive, yourself. Party non. Party on.

I know what joy is, it’s beating the Devil.

I’m not lying. Does he not understand mood rings? The Real Thing.

It’s not the people, it’s the places & the things.

It’s all you! Those that did not give it, can not take it away.

Keep your own car, running.

Arcade Fire, Montreal.

Forevermore.

Pls know, a good man can drive in the snow.

Worship, the Stars.

Gets more bee’s w honesty.

Noticing, not judging.

He just stole, a man’s wife. Put her in danger of her, life.

Man came to fight, right.

Got a risk, doged a knife.

Paul. You have no right to try to take my life.

Workplace sexual violence can lead to Death.

Stop Blaming Butterflies (Part 6): Dream Out of E-v-i-l to Free People

What part of ‘rapist,’ do you not get? I’d appreciate, some accountability. Asap, co-operate. Pls, just be honest.

You like your mother’s touch so much, P.H., what next? Lie to an innocent younger white woman at work just so she’d watch your deviant sexuality, w/ a shrill orientalized infantized “woman”. Indecency, true reality. I now have an ex-husband who’s not unaware of you.

I’m up w people.

Don’t ever expect any validationn from a empty gas station.

Which way did the witch go?

Stop expecting to get home safe, from a drunk driver. Pls take an other route, on foot or a carriage. Path of Thought. Integrity. Respond to your own Magic Wand.

Self-care, prioritization isn’t selfish, it’s a Life of Death.

No expecations of false God’s. No expectations, forgive. Rap God’s get to be. Move bitch. Get out tha way.

Obsession is an opportunity to radically attune the Now. Drop, down, roll a new one around.

“Me, I’m from "Michigan.” It’s the Chili’s.

Journey I’m not 30, just us?

Get your validation from the rigiht equation. Me, myself, and I. Earth, Elation. Joy, collective.

Vibration.

It make no sense, sweetie. Below the line, he’s not all there.

Stop the *martrydom.

What have you done for me, lately? I get a feeling tha feeling, you’re not on my side, Paul…? Not a boob man….How’s Manitoba?…Lukas Graham…60’ something year’s old, you make me so sad. Sorry, I didn’t defend myself sooner. Happy Birthday, go on, get those ‘good years…’ stop the martrydom. I’m married, where’s your intellect? Thank f* for sobriety. Observations, feelings, non-bias, experience, education, the law, and following your Heart.

Radical autonomy, stay in non-attachment to solve a situation.

Dont’t be afraid to try at your True Potential.

Even if you’re on a boat w bad bears, to just be the better one.

Life should not be defined by strife, yet by Life.

Let it be Light!

Change your lens. Change your Vision.

Focus on the right things to get a Healthy condition.

Stop serving addicition. Beat it at its own affliction.

Dream out of it.

Star Journey, 2020: Onwards, Corona, a Crown Awakening

Five years ago, a long long time from now I was in a different elemet all together. Why, is there a new energy today? I am in the same place of living at my apartment in Victoria, B.C. yet despite a consistent physcial home, it appears to embody a different energetic quadrant.

Watch out for a one day, in May, when all the lights come on today.

Live in the Highest Vibration.

The force was with me when I committed myself to a psychiatric hospital on the eve of May 5, 2020 w symptoms of mania, psychosis, and depression to the effect I required a safe place.

I’ve overcome so much in my addiction since that time, and I’m grateful for aquiring tools of right-thought to beat the mania & depression of narcissitic abuse, and clincal insomnia which could have taken my life in my bipolar. Exhaustion.

I re-committed to a practice of reading affirmations in the morning each day, and I joined a homegroup in a program of alcoholics anonymous, as well as drop in meetings at narcotics anonymous. Recitation & repitation of words in the morning is how I re-trained my mind to maintain a positive state. The mystical is a world that calls, if spoken.

Living in a state of wellbeing now in the mind is a result from experiencing extreme states, otherwise. To know those states, which required a hospitalization in a quiet part of the city, in Victoria, B.C. at the Royal Jubilee is to transcend to greater depths of awareness.

In case no told you, “You’re doing a good job.” I went in as voluntary, and it freed me. To accept that a birth onto planet earth is a required course, given its reception. Yet the time you take it is voluntary, is to know that all acts on Life are met w perception. To be on Earth as a voluntary. Act you’re meant to be here. To respect that w adherence to the Light & the Law.

Santuacy, is where your mind is at peace.

Stop Blaming Butterflies (part 5)

Perception is more than what one buy’s in a drugstore.

No one is around to hear you scream.

Their longing is in their wronging.

Steal my sunshine.

I am fortunate fool. Lebanese rule.

Vainglory.

Snake’s not in suits.

Indelible.

Daydream believer, what you, truly a High achiever? It’s up to You how many times, you choose to cross the River.

Warm friend’s, book end’s.

Write for the Right.

Science, and proress.

Clean up the beach.

Smiley, smile.

Strong fawn. Protect other ppl from untoward wrong’s.

The Time is Now. Who’s time is it? Jessica Rabit. Thurston Howells…Framed by a bandit.

$5.99 are you out of your mind? “Love you all.” Theif of the ball. Ignorance, P.H. you are innocent and neither is that odd lady. Night’s on occassion, I am offended by your outrageous entitlement to hurt me, in my sanctuary.

Stop Blaming Butterflies (part 4)

“They dont’t know, what the *shit is goint on.” Read, write, review the true record, and respond. Paternalistic, power gone ‘wrong.’ Racism = not hot for an old stock.

Ain’t hot to see a ‘older guy, braggin’, co-dependant on a Chinese tea. SOVEREIGNTY, isn’t that what you taught me, party G-O-D..? Pay the fairy man, baby. Be in autonomy, honesty, respect other’s timing! No wrong answers, just admit wrongdoing. Stop, blaming Barbie’s, just doint night hours, to provide for her flowers.

Indian giver. Time thief.

Nootka ‘98

He can’t recognize a good rape.

The ‘big’ D… which one?

Incorporate all your era’s, to realize your reality.

Racial objectifier’s are deniers, gaslighter’s. RSVP, to pls be respectful of humanity.

Grateful for the hateful.

Alternate angels may appear at the Lone Resort.

Creep show’s at 5.

Hey mister! That’s my sister.

No right to Break my Light.

Statutory, what a glory.

Meeting myself, in I. Always, aligning w my Star Tribe. Forgive, w shields. Believe, let go.

Ioncane powder.

Ain’t from a reclinin Buddha. Aware of the awareness.

Your mother’s lunch.

What if, I knew you coming…I wouldn’t bake you a cake!

“Damaged good.

Quarter for your fortune. Expresses need + greed for a Chinese tea.

Repulsed by your arrogance, P.H. How at a loss, for your racist, sexist actions. Heartless. Safety, much. Aren’t you in community? It’s not about you. Common sense, an amends. Thx!

Every situation, properly perceived is an opportunity to heal.

I feel so Blessed to be Best.

Find the angle, see out of the tangle. Embrace Life.

It’s all been a flow. Don’t stop, just go. Continue, contribute to your glow.

Totality, of your reality.

Invoke action to End distraction. Carry, on.

S.M. call’s his gf “the Korean.”

The Belief of Belief.

Guys who reward racial objectification-bad-annoying type’s, frighten me, wrongful, so difficult to see. Seek enlightenment or a point to life, stop hiding or pls just be more kindly! An unhealthy concoction is ugly for everyone. Your mentally ill asian “women” bullied me. No offense, P.H. and S.M., just don’t don’t get it. Sorry, you hate priviledge! Thank for all the gaslighter’s, I won a fight that I wasn’t even trying to Ignite. Nothing personal, I’m just at a New Level.

Sexual trauma “unhealed” in childhood, S.M. Self-proclaimed. Not a crime, son to be a victim. Try, to hea & not put abuse out into the planet.

Band’s never getting back together…Party’s at 5.

Voluntary.

Step into the eye of the Storm.

Your station is a drug of a nation. Praxis, use integration. Time, space. Value. Let go, of sub-frequency. Listen as the wind blows.

Could you pls not do that? I’m not playing that game. I already won.

Stop Blaming Butterflies (part 3)

Group think is not a wink. Change your Life. Stop obsess’ions w other’s. Get optimal w your world. Righ time. Right mind. Know “why”. Don’t waste time, on the opi’s of other’s. Respect. Self-protect. Direct.

You give to life. Life gives to you.

The future is in the Present. Mind. Be Kind.

If you want what you want, you can get + give what you got.

Addiction is Ambition in the Wrong direction.

Even if you soley Walk w a few, pls Walk w a True.

He got as fat as ‘S.M.’ Both tried to ! me, wouldn’t hand me a proper emergency, okie dokie. 9-1-1- aren’t you g’uys in “hospitality”? ~Hi S.M., I’m scared. The dogs are barking. Which dogs? Which digs? Natalya

Crisis to S.M. on November 20, 2020, 7:30am.

Into the Great Wide Open.

Xmas greeting, sent to “S.M”w out a word. 4 yrs, no calls.

Agency, pls, not Apathy. Be wary, of irratioinality. Peer reviewed. Question’s existing. Adhere to basic practices.

I am productive w my trauma. I am a good Earth mama. Men who sin, don’t like the mother of their kin.

Creation. Try, Sobriety. Start over, if you’re out there.

Best form of Validation is an “idiot’s” attempt at Invalidation. Be aware, ski w care.

Something’s rotten in the state of Denmark.

Healing is a Feeling. Star Crisis, dusk to Ice’s. Keep the car running.

Stop Blaming Butterfies (Part 2)

Onwards, or waywards. To thine own self, Be True. Have the Courage, to try a new.

Engage, and Evolve.

Hyprocrites, in the midst. Stand up to (Racism) & Pyschotic (Senseless) Violence, caused by arrogance. Victmied. Exploited. Nobody’s Jealous. Stop Blaming Butterflies. Disloyalty. Misaligned. Illogicial. Not noble. Immorality, affected my Sanity. Betrayers, misbehaviors, liars, and self-denial of part-Native white guys. Why so entitled, yo? Integrity, pls. No Values. “Trouble at home.” It works you work it!

Participate, don’t hate. Co-create, se what equates. Relate, be great.

Don’t quit before the miracle happens.

Time Marches On.

“Fight the good Fight. Keep the Faith.

Mantras, and meaning in the Morning.

Don’t pursue what he can’t continue.

Same planet. Many path’s to one. Diffferent platform’s. As you start your Star mission pls be mindful of Full Field. Treat every space w right-mindedness, respect and observe logic. All eyes on we. Non-stealing. Non-harm. Truth. Self-defense, only.

Show your work.

In no particular order.

Commit t, Cuo your commitments.

Reckoning.

He picked me, only to poison me.

Culture of Believing, Culture of Feeling, you don’t have to believe what you don’t to. Autonomy, of the Mind.

It’s a process of feeling. A process of healing. Angel care.

Do it on own your time.

When you’ve done nothin wrong, say it strong.

“Out beyond ideas of wrong and right there is a field.”

“I’ll meet you there.” ~ Rumi.

Putting on the Ritz.

Stop, attempting to control others. End jealously, pls.

10, 000 joys

10, 000 sorrows

Don’t go rapin’ waterfalls

Why rape me, just to hate me?

Racist wife, Racist life. Happy Housewarming, Theif’s of the Island. Real estate, novel? Stereotype’s, his bite. Unfortunate’s, Inappropriate residents. Try loyalty. Pls don’t do any further harm to Crown BC.

Can’t do da time, Don’t do da Crime.

“Annulment.” What a concept. 1994, September 22. “Friend’s 20 yrs. Do the right thing. Don’t lie, dont’ cheat and don’t steal. Peace & Light!

Don’t ask of us, just allow. Spirit game.

Acceptance.

“He believes he can fly.”

We walk w what carries us, we walk w ourselves.

…act’s like I care, in a dimension, say where? Better, there.

If you can’t be on Earth. Get out of the Race. Keep it clean. Give space. FAITH.

You already know everything, don’t always have keep looking. Realize, it’s here. Awaiting.

Love thy MOTHER.